I take my blue eyes for granted..

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Tue, 16 Apr 2013 09:03:45 -0400

Is it wrong that I STILL love you…? That I tried forgetting about you, and came close for a short period; but you continually come back to me…? Everywhere I go, there are memories of us.. Whether it’s driving past a park, driving down Harlem, going to get pizza at Nonna’s or ice cream from Andy’s… I just recently went downtown and EVERY fkn thing reminded me of the memories we shared there.. Every fkn store, every street, all the memories came flooding into my head. I can’t get away from you…no matter how hard I have tried, I keep thinking about you and our memories. I think about being called your “bear” and going on walks to Dunkin Donuts to get Iced Coffees or Ice Cream. How I would give you a piggy back ride the entire way from your house, there and back.. My God.. Every fkn thing I do, every-fkn-where I go, YOU’RE THERE!!! It’s not even like I’m obsessed or anything like that at all.. It’s just we’ve made so many damn memorable, happy memories together. EVERYWHERE. And everywhere I go, those memories rush over me and I have no control over it. And I miss you. And I say to myself “I love you, ******”… You were my bestfriend.. I know I made mistakes and wasn’t perfect but I tried as damn hard as I could to be.. I never in a million years wanted to hurt you.. EVER. You truly were my everything and the greatest thing to ever happen to me.. You truly were perfect to me.. And you were the ONLY girl I wanted. I thought you were so beautiful and that nothing compared to you.. I don’t know why you forced yourself to believe otherwise.. You made me the happiest I had EVER been.

I have gotten a lot better. Losing you made me lose myself. I have calmed down and obv don’t bother the fk out of you now.. But I always wonder if you think of me ever.. Or if I just mean nothing at all..as I lay here picking up the pieces of what once was. I miss you and still love you. I just wish you’d talk to me. You could see I’ve gotten better. The only way I could get even better is if I could just talk to you about everything calmly without you blowing up on me so I can just try to understand everything.. Did you really love me as much as you said you did….? Ugh… I have so many damn questions that I don’t know if they’ll ever be answered. I wish you’d just give me the opportunity to talk to you. I don’t wanna fight or argue or hurt you or anything. I just wanna talk to the one person I opened up everything to and was my bestfriend. My soulmate. The girl I was supposed to marry. I wish you could just give me some type of closure…

I still love you, Shawna. I wish I could make you happy.

lovequotesrus: EVERYTHING LOVE

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 05:29:17 -0400

lovequotesrus:

EVERYTHING LOVE

lovequotesrus: EVERYTHING LOVE

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 05:17:00 -0400

lovequotesrus:

EVERYTHING LOVE

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I can’t begin to let you know just what I’m feeling
And now the red ones make me fly
And the blue ones help me fall
And I think I’ll blow my brains against the ceiling
And as the fragments of my skull begin to fall
Fall on your tongue like pixie dust just think happy thoughts”

- Headfirst For Halos - My Chemical Romance (via iwavelikethequeendoes)

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nobodyspecial-xox: ive lost the only reason i had to keep fighting, i just want to die now

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ive lost the only reason i had to keep fighting, i just want to die now

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